So we’re really doing things again! At first I was apprehensive. But when my seal broke, the floodgates opened.
Now I’ve been spending way too much money at restaurants, trying to plan meetups with friends, making a summer bucket list for my family, clothes shopping so I don’t look a mess now that I’m somewhat back out on these streets, and well, bottom line, feeling the pressure to suck every last drop out of summer.
It feels good. A little surreal, but overall… good. I’m glad #weoutside.
But I’m realizing there’s one thing I really didn’t miss: FOMO (Fear of Missing Out). Oooh, FOMO. I have not missed you. But here you are, banging down my door.
FOMO is the devil. And my personal FOMO levels have been off. the. charts.
I wish I could be on the JOMO (Joy of Missing Out) train, but alas, I am no super human. I am an extroverted introvert or introverted extrovert - whatever I am, I’m 50/50. I like being places, doing things, seeing and connecting with people. I don’t like doing it constantly, (hence the introvert) BUT I sure do like to have a good time.
And after being relatively isolated for over a year, e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g looks amazing. I want to be at and invited to all of the things. Yeah, I’m a grown woman, but my endless insomniac social media scrolling marathons of smiling faces at the club or brunch turn me back into a middle schooler feeling left out of some party or fantastic looking outing. And when I was in middle school we didn’t have social media - we had JUST gotten internet access (can’t you hear the dial-up connection now?) so I can only imagine what it’s been like for kids over the past 15+ years.
In short, it sucks. It super duper sucks. *Pouts, crosses arms, and clicks retainer* (Sound middle school enough for you, lol?)
I decided I’m going to continue Draking for like, one more minute (‘To Drake’ is a verb we just started using in our house - it means ‘to be in one’s feelings’), then put on my big girl undies and get over it.
It may serve me better to focus on what I do have going on… but as a ‘responsible adult’ (ha!) I'll try to be mindful of others so I don’t keep the FOMO train going.